July 12, 2015 Getting Really Real

For many years now I've been a "part of" a Women's Circle. We meet monthly, do our rituals, and share yummy food and loving company. Through the years Circle has gone through many members and changes, but the basic premise remains: it is a safe place to share among loving women who respect one another and the Process, and who feel a connection to a Higher Power.

Our Circle, now named Women of the Sacred Scar, embodies our connection to Mother Earth and our processes keep us in that spiritual place.

I'm grateful today for our core group that remains, despite changes. And for the lessons I've learned, and imbued, that bring me peace and serenity. I find myself compelled, to speak what is in my heart, words and feelings that may never have been spoken out loud before. 

I'm grateful for the evolution in me, that allows me to feel Love and Trust and Faith with a group of women. This was not always the case. This is a result of a lot of work. I allow myself to open in ways that have been locked up tight since childhood. I can share and explore feelings and thoughts that were once the epitome of Secrets, marked clearly, "Don't Tell". 

For a moment I just wondered what would happen once all the barriers were down, and then I realized that as long as I draw breath, these would continue to evolve. Nothing worth treasuring comes without work.

Today I am so grateful to follow the path that brings me to where I am supposed to be. Again, no coincidence, and for sure no regrets. I am honored to be a grown up, have my heart filled by my loved ones, and by my HP as He speaks through them.

Today I am in the Present, right where my feet are, and I can remind myself as many times as it takes that these moments are irreplaceable and best not wasted on what might be, or what could have been. 

The Beat of My Heart is the Clock of Now

I am grateful for this awareness and the joy it brings me.

I hosted Circle today, and as Emma read me

A Fly Went By by Dr. Suess I caught myself drifting to my mental list of what I had to do in preparation. More than once I pulled back into the moment, reminding myself that this will never happen again in just this way, and that

G-d's plan was for me to hear this child read to me.  I knew the exact amount of time would be there for me to get things ready, but that this story, and my beautiful granddaughter, were more important than any amount of clean up or table setting.

My Higher Power does not need Monumental examples for me to receive the message

I am Open and Willing and I am grateful for the blessings that abound when I am in tune and in touch. I am grateful for the multitude of changes I have welcomed that make me more spiritual and receptive. And for an increasingly clear vision of what I still need to work on to progress in the way I want and need to.

What is blocking your joy today? 

Can you change your way of looking at that, and make things happen?

“For some of us, books are as important as almost anything else on earth. What a miracle it is that out of these small, flat, rigid squares of paper unfolds world after world after world, worlds that sing to you, comfort and quiet or excite you. Books help us understand who we are and how we are to behave. They show us what community and friendship mean; they show us how to live and die.”~ Annie Lamott

I love you,

Jill